This last weekend, I was able to go to General Conference for the first time I can remember. It was quite the experience. Up in Salt Lake it was so interesting to see how chaotic the world was hustling and bustling around. People were playing music to attempt to earn some spare change, others were shoveling into the conference center, and others were driving cars to lunch in the midst of it all. It wasn't what I was expecting to see at all. But once we finally entered and got to our seats, it all stopped. All the chaos and calamities that were exploding about all ceased. The time was then given to the Holy Ghost to teach and uplift. The choir sang with more power than seen on television and the voices of the apostles stronger than I had ever heard them previously.
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Finally, the speaker that I had been waiting for, even though I didn't even know it myself at that time, walked up to the pulpit. I saw his name on the screen. Jörg Klebingat. I remember how interesting I thought it was, and how interesting I thought his voice was. I couldn't recognize the accent he had. But I dismissed these thoughts and began to listen. As soon as I did, he said something that struck me. He posed the following questions; "What thoughts come to mind if you had a personal interview with your Savior one minute from now? Would sins, regrets, and shortcomings dominate your self-image, or would you simply experience joyful anticipation? Would you meet or avoid His gaze? Would you linger by the door or confidently walk up to Him?"
Honestly, at this point I was a little bashful. I thought about everything that could possibly be counted against me at the last day. I thought about past transgressions and the disappointment I have caused others. I told myself that I would not be confident when approaching the Savior who suffered for me. Elder Klebingat then began to declare that those very thoughts about being a disappointment to Heavenly Father or being inadequate of Christ's atonement were thoughts planted by the devil himself. This brought me much comfort, reminding myself of all the times I felt this very same way. I decided at this point, the very beginning of his talk, that I would no longer allow these voices "to chisel away at [my] soul."
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He then gave six suggestions that he recommended we all heed. These were as follows: Take responsibility for your own spiritual well-being; take responsibility for your own physical well-being; embrace voluntary, wholehearted obedience as part of your life; become really good at repenting thoroughly and quickly; become really good at forgiving; accept trials, setbacks, and surprises as part of your mortal experience. In each one of these suggestions, he gives blunt and straightforward information on how to live each of these principles. His frankness creates a sense of need of the listener. At this point, it was a great self-check to see what I need to improve in my life.
This talk was exactly what I needed. I was taught to "acknowledge and face [my] weaknesses, but [not] be immobilized by them." Our Savior expects us to keep His commandments, but on the occasions that we mess up, to utilize the atonement that He endured. Christ wants us to be confident when we come to Him at that day when we will have an "interview" with Him. Knowing this has helped me realize that I can be confident when I need the Savior. I believe in Christ, and I believe Christ.